Please Do Not

Yesterday, went both ways, it was worse and better then i expected. I came into the period knowing exactly what I wanted to do and i was preparing what it was going to look like all weekend. I came in knowing that Monday was suicide awareness day, I really haven't been at the point where harming myself was ever the option but I have came close, like most girls I know. The most insecure thing about me is my body. Regardless how people perceive me, I have always and will always see myself as over weight. I knew what I wanted to do so the beginning of the three periods I attempted to get it down on paper...then I realized that what i did was not my vision for the piece and i started over. in the end everything i did became what I wanted. My one and only problem that I have been facing is that I do not want people to think thatI am harming my self in anyway shape or form and I don't want people to think that...so please do not.