The Fall, vs. why

What I took away from the fall, was it is not how long someone stays in your life that is significant it is what you shared together what it taught you and why they were there. The Fall made me look at everyone with a critical eye, any one that has left, what they taught me, and why it was okay for them to leave. I left knowing that even if someone isn't truely in my life if my relationship with them is totally made up like people crying over someone dieing in a movie, you didn't know them, they weren't you're friend, why does someone cry over that. They build a relationship with someone with out even knowing them, why because they meant something to you. Take Michael Jackson for instance, everyone cried when he died why? You weren't friends with him. It's what he brought to the table, maybe you learned a lesson from him or two and because of that they cry.

Art

Working on my project I spent all days avalible in stac and the second i got home till about when dinner accures in my family which is about 7:30-8:00 and then i did my homework and if i had free time and it was not very late in the night (early in the day) I would work on it somemore. I did over and over again the arm where I was trying to get the shading to look 3-d i went over and over again where the rope was aswell. i spent a good half of the project just kind of staring at it like it was a horrible horrible drawing, and more then a quarter worrying that someone was going to mention to guidance that
I am suicidal when I'm really not. I didn't spend to much time socializing more asking for ideas on the next panel of my work.

My project is all about death what could be worse. The topic is weak, and very vague. There are 5 different topics in one piece there is one about words, one about anorexia another about cutting another about drinking and another about popping pills. For the technical part; the shading is horrible, the rope is all disproportionate, the bottle of Smirnoff vodka looks slanted. The pill bottle is no where close to as three-dimentional as i wanted it to be. The girl has a spine but she looks almost to skinny, i need to find a way to make her look on healthily skinny with out her just looking like I dont know how to draw. I should have done this all on one large sheet of paper.


Ask for help to fix it, find someone that can help point me in the right direction, maybe demonstrate how to get a pill bottle 3-d I mastered the box but nothing else is working for me.

Challenges

I am more interested in working in a group but in which i am the dictator i like taking control and being in control of my own stuff, with some ideas from my community, I expected to learn how to take shots from different angles and learn how to cut and put shots together to where it looks good, because no one in my group was taking charge of that. On top of that i learned something i didn't expect to which was how to take control of an actor who does not cooperate well but, you are not allowed to fire from the movie you are production kind of like an actor three quarters into a production just decides that he does not want to work well anymore. Everything i learned i expected to there is nothing that i didn't learn that i expected to maybe it was i was not challenging myself enough. I am surprised that we pulled it off with out the horror movie becoming a comedy and i was very happy that we got that one actor to actually act and be a part of the film the way he was supposed to be.

MATH OF ME, maybe

I have come down to three thing that I have decided I can't go any further with

Determination

Importance

& Freedom

these three I can not divide anymore, determination I decided on because it only shows how determination is a necessity for anything I do or else I will not do it no matter if it is necessary to do or if it will make my life easier or better. Importance is decided because, if there is no determination there is no importance and if there is no importance i really don't have determination to do it. I decided on Freedom because to do things i need to be free i need to feel like I need to feel like i can take anything and spin it the way i want it or it wont be important to me and there will be no determination. they all fold in together i don't know if i can bring them into one category or it is just the finalized math of me.