Process in its beginning

I set out to finish my whole shot list from start to finish

Never felt weirder

It all made sense to me when we did that acting exercise. Those feelings of being threatened still haunts me. When I held my neck out open and Luke came up to me I was terrified and it felt so open also the staring thing where you look away you feel like you loose it was just so awkward. I learned a lot about characteristics of people and why some people are so easily toppled over and some so easily walked over. Stand straight. Hold your ground. Also if you don't want to listen don't sit or stand at attention stand differently but still hold your ground i am very fascinated with human characteristics and why people do what they do. I love learning about it and I would love to hear more.

Stress and Kaitlyn's mind

Today in stac art i drew a heart... I was very distracted by stress in my life. I was going to draw a infinity sign because i read some where the infinity symbol relaxes the mind. but if I was going to do it i would feel very frustrated if it didn't work. My art project however i have been working on at home for weeks now its almost done but i dont really like it but i decided to finish it because i needed hours. That relaxes me also its like I take a break from my homework to do it. I found it very helpful and it keeps me focused

Theres more to it

I love when we watch movies in stac but not for the movie time but for the movie itself and the talk after it. The movie content today was amazing it was a thriller and it certainly wowed me. I am trying to pick out my favorite scene but honestly it was all so amazing. The talk after it is my favorite because the more and more we talk the more and more i understand what it going on. Not just the movie that we watched but in the future movies we will watch together or that i would watch on my own. Like how him coming out of the car was like a rebirth and him washing in the water was like him cleansing himself. I love the movies we watch in stac especially the ones that totally screws with you head like the 12 monkeys

The Fall, vs. why

What I took away from the fall, was it is not how long someone stays in your life that is significant it is what you shared together what it taught you and why they were there. The Fall made me look at everyone with a critical eye, any one that has left, what they taught me, and why it was okay for them to leave. I left knowing that even if someone isn't truely in my life if my relationship with them is totally made up like people crying over someone dieing in a movie, you didn't know them, they weren't you're friend, why does someone cry over that. They build a relationship with someone with out even knowing them, why because they meant something to you. Take Michael Jackson for instance, everyone cried when he died why? You weren't friends with him. It's what he brought to the table, maybe you learned a lesson from him or two and because of that they cry.

Art

Working on my project I spent all days avalible in stac and the second i got home till about when dinner accures in my family which is about 7:30-8:00 and then i did my homework and if i had free time and it was not very late in the night (early in the day) I would work on it somemore. I did over and over again the arm where I was trying to get the shading to look 3-d i went over and over again where the rope was aswell. i spent a good half of the project just kind of staring at it like it was a horrible horrible drawing, and more then a quarter worrying that someone was going to mention to guidance that
I am suicidal when I'm really not. I didn't spend to much time socializing more asking for ideas on the next panel of my work.

My project is all about death what could be worse. The topic is weak, and very vague. There are 5 different topics in one piece there is one about words, one about anorexia another about cutting another about drinking and another about popping pills. For the technical part; the shading is horrible, the rope is all disproportionate, the bottle of Smirnoff vodka looks slanted. The pill bottle is no where close to as three-dimentional as i wanted it to be. The girl has a spine but she looks almost to skinny, i need to find a way to make her look on healthily skinny with out her just looking like I dont know how to draw. I should have done this all on one large sheet of paper.


Ask for help to fix it, find someone that can help point me in the right direction, maybe demonstrate how to get a pill bottle 3-d I mastered the box but nothing else is working for me.

Challenges

I am more interested in working in a group but in which i am the dictator i like taking control and being in control of my own stuff, with some ideas from my community, I expected to learn how to take shots from different angles and learn how to cut and put shots together to where it looks good, because no one in my group was taking charge of that. On top of that i learned something i didn't expect to which was how to take control of an actor who does not cooperate well but, you are not allowed to fire from the movie you are production kind of like an actor three quarters into a production just decides that he does not want to work well anymore. Everything i learned i expected to there is nothing that i didn't learn that i expected to maybe it was i was not challenging myself enough. I am surprised that we pulled it off with out the horror movie becoming a comedy and i was very happy that we got that one actor to actually act and be a part of the film the way he was supposed to be.